“make america great again!” ok, where are my untouched national parks? where are my unpolluted rivers and aquifers? where are my trash-free coasts? you don’t want the old america back, you just want the oppression and racism and general inequality that we’ve been trying to erase for years. say you’re a self-important bigoted old bitch and move on
I hurt. I really fucking hurt. My boyfriend shattered all trust with me, and now I have this persistent and heavy feeling weighing in my chest. I’m down. I have seen him a few times since we ran into this issue the other day and it’s hard to hear his words and believe anything he says. I am trying to be open to him, but I think I’d be a fool to let my guard down completely. We’re going to work on some trust building activities. I just want to feel valuable and wanted by him.
Life is hard. I can’t vent this anywhere else but here and in my journal at home. It feels good to just work it out into words, to let it all escape my mind. So yes, this will be all over the place.
Bare with me if anyone ends up reading this.
I feel like I give and give to people and they don’t return the favor when I need it. I rarely ask anything of anyone. Just this week alone my boyfriend is acting like a damn fool and my roommate of 3 years did me real dirty and would rather me sleep in my car than allow me to stay in her room for 10 days. No matter what kind of hope Id like to have in people. They still let me down.
Maybe I’m better off on my own. All of this has made me realize you can only rely on yourself and your own actions. From here on out I’m not sugar coating my feelings to protect someone else.
I think if I scream and yell and hit things and cry maybe I would feel better. Probably not. When will this end?
